There’s no end, there is no goodbye Disappear with night

I wish I could end it all. Without the heartbreak of my family. I wish I could just die without making other people sad. I want to join my parents so badly. I want to be with them and not here alone. I want to be free from this pain, I dont think it will ever get any better and im so sick of fighting. I just want to sleep for a while. I just want everything to be okay.